Lol I JUST posted that last one but I keep having random thoughts I wanna share.
Nick is delicate, like a flower….like a chubby, damaged flower….who hates himself.”
I’m using Sirpaddington as my back supporter. He is such a good bear. I’m really glad you wanted a stuffed spirit animal as much as I did. I THINK it might be a moment I realized you were really quite fond of me. Letting me drag you around to several stores and such. What a silly thing. Maybe that was early enough that you were just trying to be in my good graces, but I’m pretty sure you were already getting laid quite often so that couldn’t have been TOO much of your motivation. =P
I don’t get why people argue in public with their loved ones. Unless they’re drunk. ….I think I just hallucinated you texting me. LOL. That’s sad. In a sweet way hopefully. Anyway, weekends seem like they’d be a good time to risk a fap. So that’s nice.
Jess comes in, dropping ingredients and a frozen turkey.
"Well, I went to 5 different grocery stores, and I got the Last Turkey in America!"
Nick: (in panic) No, we’re not doing Thanksgiving, okay? we talked about this. We’re gonna watch football, drink beer, and then we’re going to Best Buy for Black Friday.”
Winston: [very seriously, with drama] “Or as I like to call it, ‘Friday’”
I think my favourite thing is that she acts in advance to preemptively head off things. “Don’t do that thing you always do this time”.
Yeah I’m definitely missing my no-pleasantry-weekends.
I have finally begun to work. Sort of. It is hard. I’m a sad individual. But I’m really enjoying today. I feel like something is clicking. Like an itch is bring scratched.
I say, as Brian returns home (with the car? I’m confused?). He says John is coming up soon too? Oh maybe John drove him and the keys I heard are Brians house keys. I have a suspicion that he doesn’t leave his keys by the door like the rest of us, for some reason.
Anyway, John is here now. I came out to greet him so he could be sure he was in the right place, and he mentioned you’ve been suggesting bands and stuff to him. I thought I’d have to socialize, but he was attracted to Brian’s guitar and started playing to himself it seemed, so I’ve left him to play in the living room.
Oh he just came to say hi. He tried to fix my fan when we saw the WD40 I hadn’t put away yet. He did not manage to, he says its the motor. He also poked at the Xbox 360 and also declared it dead. Now they have left to play racquetball.
Trail mix is really filling. I may be eating too much of it though. I made some cod today though.
I’m still doing stats stuff. I think I’m losing my will to go back to work before Elaine gets home. Ah, a catch in the plan. I know if you were here you would encourage me to do the responsible thing. But I think I’m still gonna go to work, just later….it’s just that I only would NEED to go to work if I thought I’d be dragged out to socialize or something.
But I think I can resist. Because I have this presentation.
Elaine is home. I am practicing being alone when we’re together for everyones own good. I’m about a 6. I’ve got New Girl on in the background to be the usual background noise. So far not going back to work has been okay. This might be okay.
PS I’m starting to miss you now.
Elaine agrees that the tablet sounds amazing. She also emphasized that she doesn’t have work tomorrow so we could hang out. I wonder if that means she wants to take off. But now Brian is home and things are weirder then.
Jess: “You always see the worst in people.”
Nick: “Yeah, cause people are the worst!”
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE - My OFC results match what I wrote on my notes. I think.
But now I have to do the OTHER BRAIN REGION and Ugh this already took so long, and means NOTHING anyway, I’m sure.
Elaine just came to invite me to dinner! They have made chicken. I guess spreadsheeting will need to wait. I’m glad I’ve sobered a bit. I wish I’d gotten more done though. I’ll have to lie because Brian will know right away how little I’ve got done. I could BS Elaine if I tried but, Brian would never understand how I could do statistics for ALL DAY.
Okay I’d better go socialize properly. I’m sorry I haven’t done well so far tonight, but I love you, and wish you were here.